One of the things I struggle with the most while working on this current degree is the time it takes away from my babies. It was a little easier to balance the time when it was just one kid. I would study during his naps or wait until he went to sleep for the night to work on papers. My first born may be rambunctious but he does love his naps and goes to bed fairly early so I can get things done.
Add another child? Well, what is time? W is still a puzzle I’m trying to figure out. Unlike his older brother, he likes to sleep in, naps currently can’t be done without him unless I’m wearing him, and he likes to stay up later at night than his brother. I’ve decided that temporarily, at least I’m hoping, I have to be a night owl. Oh how I love my sleep, it’s also especially imperative due to my PPD, but graduation is so close I can feel it at my fingertips. So for now, I will be a night owl.
It’s a little hard to see it now, with the massive bags under my eyes, how bloodshot my eyes look, and just how darn sleepy I feel. I really don’t want to take away too much time I can be spending with my babies. I guess I just needed to remind myself, that this will be worth it. I really want this and I decided to go back to school for another degree not only for myself but my family as well. I can’t see it completely right now, due to the lack of coffee quite possibly, but it will be worth it.