How becoming a mama has made me feel beautiful.

My kids have shown me to see the beauty within myself.

My transition to mamahood hasn’t been an easy or smooth one but it has given me so much in terms of personal growth.  Mamahood has changed my life in many ways. It has especially made me unapologetic of myself – flaws, quirks, and all.

I was one of those awkward girls growing up.  It seemed to be especially apparent during middle school and high school.  I know a lot of people say this, but I really didn’t feel that I fit in. Thanks to genes I was skinny, very light skinned compared to my peers, and shy.  Add being mixed race in a community where there were a handful of us – it made me feel self conscious.  I didn’t look like anyone else and people made sure to point it out.  When I would receive compliments, I would just have a blank stare or laugh it off.  I never saw myself as beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, or anything closely related.  Probably the hardest things for me was trying to navigate through life and accepting the person I was – quirks, strengths, looks, etc.  Even writing this post has taken some time to be able to verbalize my thoughts.  It’s been sitting in my drafts for almost a month.

Becoming a mother changed that for me.  It was no longer about myself or worrying about how I looked.   It was about this tiny and fragile human that was delicately handed to me.  I see pieces of me in each of my children.  The same pair of lips and skin on my first and the same large eyes and smile in my second.  I see the silly sense of humor I have budding with my first.  Then there is the determination I have that I’m beginning to see with my second.

Tee from: parentees.co
Tee from: parentees.co

 

I’ve had my ups and downs with accepting myself.  The one thing that has been constant through out all of this is God’s presence.  I would find myself feeling so low but managing to pull myself out of it once I poured my heart and thoughts to the Lord.

Proverbs 3:5-6New International Version (NIV)

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.[a]

Placing that trust in Him, with all my heart, has given me the blessing of my beautiful kids.  Being blessed with both my children has only intensified that faith that I have.  Time and time again He has given me tests to show me my worth, my own beauty, the beauty that he has given me.  My children have been able to open my eyes and extend this further. They have shown me that they love me and see the beauty in me.  This is regardless of what I’m going through, what I’m trying to over come, or how I may see myself sometimes.  My children have pushed me – with God’s help.   There will no longer be apologies regarding who I am.  I am moving towards accepting my flaws, embracing what makes me unique, and starting to look at myself as beautiful – as God has made me.

 

16 thoughts on “How becoming a mama has made me feel beautiful.

    1. Thank you 💕 It means a lot coming from a Mama whose writing I admire very much!

    1. Thanks for reading! This is definitely one of the many wonderful things I’m thankful for as a Mama.

    1. Thanks Mae! I’ve had this sitting in drafts but after reading your latest post it inspired me to finish it up 🙂

  1. This was so well written. I completely relate. Being a mom has changed me for the better. Thank you for sharing this.

    1. Thanks for reading and glad you can relate! Becoming a mother has definitely brought change for the better for me as well 🙂

  2. I love this so much. I feel like you were describing me lol. The shy one that didn’t really fit in and trying to accept my flaws. I got a little emotional reading this, to be honest with you. Thank you for sharing. <3

    1. Thanks for reading <3 It took me awhile to finish writing this post just because of how emotional it makes me, so I so get it. Here's to the shy ones and finding what makes us beautiful in our own way 🙂

  3. You are a beautiful lady, and have written so beautifully too. I’m so glad for you, that Motherhood and your Faith have helped you to accept yourself more #stayclassy

  4. I completely relate 100% Shedding some tears here. I agree with you with all my heart. And girl you’re so so beautiful don’t forget that!

    1. Thank you so much for reading 💗 you are beautiful too and I hope you don’t forget either!

  5. This is such a beautiful post, thank you for sharing, I know what it’s like when you have one in the drafts for over a month! You and your son are gorgeous (and love that t-shirt!). I love the message of this post, becoming a mother has made me more confident and understanding. Thanks for linking up with #StayClassy!

    1. Thank you so much for reading and for the compliment. Motherhood has definitely been a learning experience and I’m glad this particular lesson because it was definitely needed.

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